Emo wtf emo wtf!

I have no idea why but I am getting really really emo these few days.

It all started off when I yelled at the boyfriend to force him to go for his hair cut last Friday. I couldn't stand seeing his long and thick hair anymore.

And then bad karma came, for yelling at the lovely boyfriend. =(

We went to this new hairdresser (well, new for me but old for the boyfriend) and I was certain that I didn't want to do anything to my hair. So while sitting there flipping the magazines, the hairdresser came talking to me. Apparently he reckoned that my hair was just too long and it made me look old, and with all the split ends, there's no point leaving it long already. So he suggested to trim my hair for me, without making much changes to it.

And I shouldn't have had agreed to let him to!!!

The next moment I was having my hair washed by his assistant. I am not sure about you, but that was the first time where I came across hairdresser who cut my hair when it was still all wet. And then he set a trap for me. And I was stupid enough to had fallen into his trap!

He asked, while combing my hair, "Do you like your hair to be layered? I promise you it's gonna look good."

And since I kept saying that I like long hair and I was really reluctant to cut my hair short, he then further assured me that he's gonna cut it without affecting the length of my hair. Sounded really convincing.

Okay lah. So I let him do what he want lah!

wtf wtf wtf wtf wtffffff!

i swear i really wanted to kill the hairdresser when he chopped my hair off just like that! And his way of chopping it off was rather special, yet easy. All he did was tie my hair up into a horse tail using a rubber band, then asked me to turn myself facing him, bend my head till its about 90 degrees, and he just chopped it off near the rubber band!

And there's something even more evil!

Because my hair was long enough, he got the chance to show me where he would want to start chopping it off before he did it. He pulled my hair and showed me, "okay, I cut until here okay?"

And before I got to shout NO because he was gonna chop it off so short, he already started chopping my hair. wtf that means he didn't intend to wait for my answer! He was merely informing me!

Oh my lovely hair *throws tantrums while rolling on the floor*

wtf now you all agree to let me go burn down his shop or not you say?! I kept my hair for about 3 years and waited so long to let it reach this length, and that bugger just chopped it off as though it can grow back as fast as my armpit and pubic hair! wtf lah!

And yeah lah, I couldn't scold him also lah. Because like he'd promised, the length of my hair is still there. ONLY A FEW STRANDS OF MY HAIR is still as long as before.

wtf damn cunning right this hairdresser! He must have planned to cut my hair that way since the beginning!

neh you see. from the back, it still looks long. but when you see it from the front, its not there anymore *throws tantrum again*

eh wtf last time my hair was long enough to cover my boobs le. Now kenot already! And if you dare to comment that its because my boobs are small and therefore my hair used to be able to cover them, then I am so gonna chop your kukujiao off like what the hairdresser did to my hair!

Emo-ing while eating Sundae in McD

I hardly find my hair looking good after getting them cut by the hairdressers, but fortunately it turned out to be nice lah this time. Else I am so going to burn down that saloon already! But despite heart-ing my current hairstyle, I still went home and cried for like 2 hours, mourning over my hair.

wtf lah I spent 3 years keeping them long and now I only spent 2 hours crying over them very over meh?!

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Just yesterday night, I had a small fight with the family members, because of a stupid Sushi King membership card. All of a sudden my 2nd brother wanted to have dinner there, and so we went. And because the 1st brother won lottery for i-don't-know-how-much, he agreed to treat us. And it's an open secret that my 1st brother and I wont even look at each other if we happen to meet in other places. Yeah, that practically explains our relationship well.

And so when he went to settle the bill, I wasn't really aware, and I was the only one in the family having a Sushi King membership card. He didn't ask me for the card, and I didn't know he went settling the bill. And so we missed the RM 20++ discount.

Then later when my parents found this out, my mom was like, instantly yelling at me for not giving him the Sushi King card when I myself knew I have got one.

And I dont know what got into me I was brave enough to shout back! (Never in the history okay?) I went on like "your son stupid now you flame me for what?!"

Perhaps my dad got frightened with my sudden temper (i told you it was the first time. Never have I done that before. I am always the quiet, idea-less, and temper-less daughter), he too shouted at me saying things like "You cannot stand being scolded one lah!"

For that sentence from my dad, I came home crying for another 2 hours. wtf lah for ages I have been keeping quiet even though I got scolded for things that I have not done and things that I dont find myself guilty, and now that I have exploded for the very first time, and he said I couldn't stand being scolded!

who the hell can stand it you tell me?

That's why, I should have listened to my aunt. She knew that deep inside my heart I am sometimes dissatisfied with my family members, and she often encourage me to sort of like fight back, and tell them that I am actually unhappy about it instead of just keeping quiet and stick to the usual aiyah-i-keep-quiet-let-u-scold-for-sometime-then-everything-will-be- okay-lah!

Now, see, exploded for just one time and the entire family members think I was going to bomb and screw up the whole house already. And because of that I got a lecture from my dad just now, keep telling me things like "a family is still a family. parents are still your parents. your brothers are still your brothers. there's no way you can deny it. and you've got to change your temper. it's horrible."

If my temper of keeping things peaceful and keeping quiet all the time so as to not create more problems is considered as horrible, I dont know how else I can behave already. Might as well put batteries into my body and control me like how you control a robot. No feelings what at least.

Sigh. How to not emo lah you say? How to stay happy?

I guess maybe depression is slowly creeping into me. I don't know.

Anyone got antidepressants to spare?